One of those days.....

I sit here now watching my son rest after a long day of being very sick. Everyday he is nauseated and every other day is spent with nausea and vomitting.. He has no appetite and cant eat several days out of the week, all of this is due to the worsening of his renal function. Over the last 7 months ive watched my son lose 60 pounds and the weight is hard to keep on him. Those facts alone are hard for me to watch my son go through.. But he suffers in so many ways physically,mentally and emotionally.. As his mom, I feel so helpless most of the time... It is the worse feeling in the world knowing there is nothing you can do to help take away any of the pain,anger and sorrow he goes through on a daily basis, but you do try..There are days that are better than others and you cherish those days. Then there are days that are way worse, that you fear this could be "the day"...