Justin goes through many different emotional feelings at this point in his life, there is a lot of pain, hurt, fear and anger... Who can blame him? He has every right to own everyone of those feelings being a young man of 18 years old who should just be starting his life, instead he goes to bed at night wondering if he will wake up the next morning.. I know its got to be hell for him to deal with that heavy load, I know it is for me as a parent. I can only imagine what he goes through on a daily basis.Yesterday he blew up at me with anger of what his life holds in store for him and how he dont understand why he has been dealt this hard hand in life... Of course I broke down and it upset him even more.. He went and locked hisself in his room and I felt horrible for him.. Later on when he came out he apologized and said he dont know why he looses it like that and takes it out on me.. Then he said "Mom, I cant believe you arent furious with me and act like that blowup I had never happened". I told him "Son, I love you unconditionally"... There is nothing you can ever do that can make me love you any less... My love comes with no boundries and no conditions.. He grabbed me and hugged me and said "Thank you Mom, for loving me that much"...It took my breath away....He said anyone else wouldnt tolerate that from him sick or not sick, but a mother will..
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